Stay, stay, stay. I've been loving you for quite some time.

So if it isn't insomnia, it's nightmares that keep me awake. I read somewhere the other day that our dreams/nightmares are things forgotten that are screaming for our help. It has given me a lot to think about in regards to my night terrors/bad dreams, whatever it happens to be.

I felt so safe with him; not a single nightmare any night we spent the night together and he always kept me smiling. It frustrates me that I couldn't make him understand that when I said I would be his girlfriend, I was accepting him just the way he is. I still do accept the way he is. Of course, given that he won't give me the time of day, I really need to stop thinking about it - but when someone feels so right, when they make you feel exactly as you know you should, how are  you supposed to let go?

I don't buy that "he's just not that into you" bull and I don't believe that he just magically stopped caring. What is so hard to understand about: "I accept you for who you are, the good, the bad, the flaws - all of it." Why wasn't that enough?   If only he could hear me out, really, truly get that with him it could never be called settling because he was all I wanted, just the way he was..the way he is. There isn't anything that could change that. 

Why can't it be easier? Why does it have to hurt like this? Maybe I've been goin back too much lately, when time stood still, and I had you ....  Come back, come back to me like you could if you'd just say you're sorry; I know we could work it out somehow.